Bravery sometimes does not seem to be my fortey. I had my appointment yesterday with my surgeon. The appointments surrounding my past cancer diagnosis brings up so many intense emotions. And it is just hard for me. I gave myself the time afterwards to have a good cry which was based on the relief that it was over, but also trying to figure out how this is my story.
As I turned the ignition on my car, the Christmas songs started up. Ugh, how I am supposed to be cheery now when all I want to do is go home and crawl into bed. But, I can’t. The kids need to be picked up from school, homework started, dinner on the table and a few more client emails to be sent.
Yes, it is a balance between life and all of its, sometimes, harsh realities and those simple pleasures like the holidays. I have by no means mastered this balance, nor do I think I ever will. But that is one of my goals while I am on this journey. Yesterday, was just a little hard. Yet, at the end of the night, the cup of hot tea and the soft Christmas tree lights made the day a little better.
Many Christmas Blessings,